Sometimes....

I miss having a friend to talk to. Someone who knows me, knows where I am coming from. Someone who isn't involved in my situations who can be objective. It could be a girl or a guy , although the former are lacking from my life, sometimes I can go a week or more with out speaking to another female.
I could email my friends in the UK, but that's not me, somethings are best said in the moment and not written down to then be looked at in the cold light of day.
The stupid thing is I have rarely if ever in the past discussed feelings etc with friends. Its just not me I bottle things up for fear of looking stupid or boring people. I think the difference was before though I knew I had it if I ever needed it. I could make new friends but it takes time to build a relationship to that point where you can say what you want and not be judged.
I just want to know that there are people who like me for who I am in my life no matter what.
Afterall, everybody needs a friend now and again....
Sometimes I would even give my right arm for a sibling. I know people moan about them but at least you( well mostly) have someone there for you.